5/27/2005 12:04:00 PM

yea... started work today... a very slack job... recept at a redemption counter... very bo liao oso... juz sit there n tok cok... haha... basically we onli haf things to do when pple come n claim the limited umbrellas or lucky draw forms... n its very easy job... imagine u r getting paid $6 an hr... haha not alot... but its considered quite alot for a job dat doesnt require u to do anything... but den onli work 4.5 hrs... so my overall pay will be abit little... but its okie... i'll be doing nothing for these 2 mths... hee... but haf to meet wif some unreasonable pple lor... so stupid lor... umbrellas haf oredi been fully redeemed.. n they make a big fuss coz they cant get 1... n they start scolding the promotion sayin we shld write "while stock last for the day" instead of "while stock last"... how dumb rite? hahaha anyway couldnt be bothered... most pple who came were easy n nice.. coz i thin k they all work in far east plaza... haha... funny.. all the shop keepers come n claim the free gifts... hahaha... watever lah... its a good job... dats all i can say.. somemore working wif bb... hee.... got pple tok cok wif me... hee... so pple if u r free.. come n visit me at far east plaza redemption counter okie... hee... marc came to see me today n pass me the bangkok fotos n return me money... hee.. oh ya... ah pek still owe me 150 baht!! hahaha r u going to pay me back in baht??? hee... pay me back in sing dollars pls... hee... gotta go rest... tml's another working day... =)

5/23/2005 12:09:00 PM

did a lot of thinkings today... realised dat my thinkings haf matured... maybe its to me onli...

definition of frens : pple who make u laugh? crap wif u? bitch arnd wif? gossips abt others? or even pple whom u noe u will describe them as ur frens?
my definiton of frenz: pple who realli cares abt me.... they may not keep asking how haf i been or wat haf i been doing... but i noe they will be there for me whenever i need them... do i haf these type of frenz?? yes i do... n i noe she will always be there for me even though she's in australia... i noe she will be willing to help me regardless of my problem... i miss Su Wen.. realli misses her... wish we were back to the sec sch times when she will tell me her problems n i will tell her mine... n now.. i'm all alone.... feel dat even though there r frenz arnd, i cant seem to confide in them... guess i'm the person wif only 1 best fren arnd.... n nobody can take her place... realli misses her...

there r some types of frenz dat i think we shldnt even regard as frenz... these pple teaches the bad stuff... maybe its juz a joke.. but sometimes a joke can hurt... n they wun noe how much it hurts n they make fun of it... i totally hate this type of so called frenz... so wat if they can click wif u... but they r hurting pple.. wats worse is when u join in them making a joke out of others... luckily for me.. i dun haf these types of frenz... but i've fren's frenz who r like dat n i've been a victim of their joke... not onli once but many times... these pple realli sux... i shall make a pact to stop any contact wif these pple... coz i dun wanna be hurt anymore.....

5/22/2005 10:11:00 AM

vesak day today... public holiday... but i felt nothing much abt it... juz like any normal stay home day...didnt do anything much too.. juz feel like slping my day away... but the more i slp the more tired i felt... okie dats juz so piggy me... ha....

sometimes i realli feel dat i'm juz another redundant person in this world... it doesnt matter whether i'm here or not... if i wasnt arnd nothing will change... if i was arnd den its juz an extra... i think to everybody i'm juz dat... my frenz, family, etc... seems like onli myself will care for me... sounds sad? dats a reality.... reality also proves to me dat i can be an abandoned person if i dun even care for myself... ha... so shld i abandon myself? no i wun do dat... maybe someday i will but not now... not at this period of time..... i think i can survive alone... i haf to... needing no help from others will be the best... i will try....

some little tots: how do u define CARE?? does buying lots of things for me shows dat u care?? nah... i dun think so... how abt 'scolding u after u knock ur head against a wall becoz he oredi warned u dat its gonna hurt b4 u did it'?? all these types of CARE are bullshit... wat i realli wan for some1 to care abt me is ' comfort me after i knock my head against the wall even though i've been warned dat its gonna hurt ' instead of telling me "see i told u its gonna hurt".... i think i'm expecting too much... but am i?? do this type of pple still exist in this world... i believe there is... coz i met a few b4 yet i couldnt catch hold of them......